I’m lonely. Thinking what i thought was the best choice for us turned out to be completely wrong. I miss you, I fucking miss you so goddamn much. Every night I think about calling you or I just look at my phone wondering why I haven’t received your message yet. I think about how our relationship was going and feel so stupid that I couldn’t realize what I had. I punish myself because I couldn’t do a simple thing for you when you did the best you can just to make me happy. I regret all those time I made you wait all those sleepless nights waiting for me, just a single reply or call. I miss hearing your voice at night, when you’re tired but yet you still fight to stay awake just because you want to talk to me. I miss hearing your laugh, your smile, the way you blush when I make a lovey dovey remark, I miss seeing your face when i would say “Why you smiling?”, I miss my bubs. It doesn’t seem like it but I think about you every single moment and think “How is she?” or “What is she doing right now” “Is she happy?” I miss everything about you. I miss holding hands in secret just because I know how much you hate PDA, I miss listening to you talk for days and apologize for talking so much, I miss hearing you call me babe cause you knew how happy it made me hearing you say it. I took for granted what you did for me, and it sucks how the most simplest things I could barely do for you. I hate myself for not giving enough time for you and always on my friends. I’m the one that did this and I regret everything. I let someone who loved me for what i am and the things i did and put it aside go. I fucked up because look at me now I’m sitting here not knowing what to do and just thinking of every possible reason why I miss you. I miss cuddling and being able to put my head near your chest just so I can hear your heartbeat, I miss feeling your warm embrace, I miss teasing you by pulling myself away right before we kiss, I miss staring at you when you’re not looking just so i can appreciate someone as beautiful as yourself. Wanna know why I thought about that night after my cousins party? because I couldn’t stop thinking about you, even after i had fallen asleep you still held onto me through the night staying up watching me and still not falling asleep cause you knew you had to get ready that morning. I’m in love with you and I could never stop loving you.